In thinking about yesterday and realizing that my hearts desire for ministry helping Christians overcome some of life’s struggles with the power of God, I was blessed. It’s nice to realize two things:
1.) I am already serving in “My Brother’s Keeper”. It doesn’t have to be a counseling ministry as I had always envisioned but it is encouraging and teaching my junior high girls as they travel along this road called middle school. I won’t be in this ministry forever but for now…it’s where I am and I am grateful.
2:) I don’t have to feel “less than” because my ministry area right now seems to be with Christians. I struggle with “getting out there” and proclaiming Christ to the lost, dying world but for right now that just isn’t the season I find myself in. God has given me this area for now and I love it.
I’m reading chpt. 30 in TPDL. I am journaling today from the anagram “SHAPE” that Rick Warren uses.
S- Spiritual Gifts. Every test I take ends up reflecting the same results. Encouraging and Mercy. I love that because they are 100% accurate in that they bring me great joy when I am given opportunities to use them. If the purpose of spiritual gifts are to bless others, am I using them in that way. This fits in exactly with where my heart is in junior high. God has also sent Christians to me over the years who really needed someone to encourage them and I love that. I’m not always perfect at it but I definitely can attest to the fact that He has given me the right words at the right time on numerous occasions. God doesn’t just love the lost—He loves the Christian too and He knows what they need. Sometimes life is hard and we all need someone to pick us up. Lord, help me to use these gifts for Your Glory and not my own pride. It is you, not me. Give me wisdom and words. Help me not be a flatterer. Help me say the hard things when needed. This is not easy for me but with Your Help, I want to grow to do just that when it is necessary.
I also found it interesting that last week, I took another one of these tests and scored higher on Hospitality than I have in the past. Perfect timing to realize that as we now live on church property. Lord, show me how I can use this home that You have allowed us to live in to encourage and edify others. Thanks for blessing us and letting us live here. Please help Chris to love it too and feel at home. Give us wisdom to know what to do with the Ansonia home. If we can bless someone else with it, show us who.
H-Heart– What interests me? What drives me and brings me joy? God has given me the unique personality I have with the unique desires, motivations, passions and interests. I have said many times that I love my job and my ministry with the girls. I am so thankful right now that God has given me the opportunity to do what I love. He doesn’t want us to serve out of duty. None of these things are duty for me. Although, if I am honest, there are times when I’m tired and maybe don’t “feel like” going but once I’m there, I lose that feeling and there is energy and joy. I often feel selfish because I felt like I get more out of each of these than I could ever give. I don’t want to serve for selfish reasons. Lord, Thank you so much for chances to serve you that fill places in me that YOU HAVE CREATED that could only be filled by serving in the ways that YOU HAVE PREPARED ME FOR. I’m so grateful. And so affirmed that I am right where You want me. Please help me to be sensitive to Your Spirit. No ministry is forever. When I am not effective in this way any longer, remove me. And thank you that You won’t forget me but You may have a new season of service for me. I’m willing and trust that You will have me ready to do whatever You call me to do.
Abilities-Often I have felt like I had no special talents. I am realizing today that God has equipped me to serve Him well in the office at Calvary and now in cleaning the church. They are grand abilities by the world’s standards but I am doing well at both because that is who God made me to be. These are the talents/abilities He has equipped me to do. I have ended up working for the church in some capacity in every church we have attended. (3). Thank you Lord, for this ability You have given me. It is fun. It’s not grand and mostly unseen by all but You. I am glad to do it. And I love it. Thank you so much.
Personality-an Extroverted People Lover. Again, perfect for the “jobs” He has given me.
- Family- Being a first born I am naturally more organized and it is within me to care for the “flock”. It began with Nancy and Kevin. Has carried over to my own family and even in the ministry with the junior high girls. To do the jobs I have in the office, organization is also key to success.
- Educational – Loved school but had a rough junior high experience. Not a lot of friends. Junior High kids need someone to build them up because they spend an awful lot of time tearing each other down or tearing themselves down with negative thoughts about themselves.
- Vocational- Any job I have ever had has taught me work ethic and a desire to “please the man”. Now I have learned it’s better to “please THE MAN” in my job. Being a people pleaser can be a negative for sure. But it does create work ethic and the desire to do whatever it takes to get the job done.
- Spiritual-So many things to say here. Not enough time to do it. But God has taught me SO MUCH through great teachers and preachers. I’m blessed when I can share that with others.
- Painful- I think of the “barren years”. I think of the “loner” years. I think of losing my dad when I was about to become a mom. There has been pain. But He has redeemed it. Lord, help me trust you with future pain to do the same.
I have enjoyed studying my SHAPE today. It has affirmed me in many ways that I am where God would have me. None of this is written with a prideful heart–God knows that. I feel weird even writing it unless I emphasize over and over that any good thing in me is because GOD PUT IT THERE for HIS GLORY. I know for sure that there is “no good thing in me.” My natural inclination is sin showing itself with selfishness and pride. And also laziness. But God is good and He knows all about me. I read also about the woman at the well again and I love that Jesus knew all about her. Everything she had ever done and He still chose to meet her where she was and teach her more about Him. She had heard of God–but that day she met Her Savior. If God had chosen an introverted person…or a person with no public sin….someone whose life was all together, would they have even listened? Would they have gone to tell others about Who she had met? It’s so cool that even in her SHAPE God CHOSE HER to serve Him in this way. And it’s recorded in the Bible!!!!