Lord, today as I read through my usual routine, I didn’t have anything in particular jump out at me, I know that this is OK and happens. I thought about continuing on but then decided to take the time to pray and ask you for some things for some people I love:
Starr- Lord, she is really struggling with the loss of Paul. Please help her to find Peace in you each day..each moment. Protect her, provide for her in ways that draw her closer to You. Help me to be aware of what I can do for her to encourage her.
Sandy-Struggles so much. Help her Lord with Your Wisdom to know what to do about her job situation. It’s a mess. Give her contentment and joy and peace.
Family members who are not yet saved. Lord, please open their eyes to first see their own need for you. Some don’t even believe you exist or at least act like that. Please do whatever it takes to bring them to the knowledge of your Reality and your Truth. Bud, Joan, Bob, Sheri, Ingrid, Vivien, Bob M. I’m not sure where Nancy and Kevin stand. Make it clear to them what they need to draw close to You.
Encourage and bless my mom and Sharon. Thank you for the moms you have given us.
Lisa- Her search is exciting. Help her to formulate the questions she has and help me to have your answers for her. I pray that she will come to church this Sunday and to lunch after. Work in her health, circumstances, etc to bring her.
Use me today, Lord–to be a blessing and an encouragement.
Show me You today. Help me to seek you and see you.
I love you
Lord, as I read this morning in “Becoming More..”, I was struck by the ability we have to see you in the mundane routine of life. If we seek you.
Seek means to go in search of, to try to find or discover, to attempt, to ask for. It is to actively look for Him and anticipate His Activity in everything.
I am also reading the book of John and I am “coincidentally” on chapter 1 v 43-51. I love how I “just happened” to be reading the part where Jesus called Nathanael. Nathanael asked Jesus, “How do you know me?” Jesus answered that He knew him even before he was called when he “sat under the fig tree”. I am so grateful that God saw me in my fig tree sitting years. Many years of wasted selfish living. But He saw me! And intervened to show me Himself and rescued me from my self-centered world. He saw me and loved me!
Lord, help me seek you. Seeking is more than seeing. Seeking implies that we make the effort to anticipate your activity in our routine days. Seeking is an action. Seeing is the result of that action. Lord help me to do my part to seek you today so that I might see you in my life. Even in the days where I will spend much of it cleaning the church to prepare for Easter services. You care about how clean your church is. I’ve often thought that it is an honor to be able to be a good hostess for your people as they come in the building. To make sure it’s cleaned well, stocked with necessary supplies and even little touches making it feel like people are welcome and we are glad they are there. You have a work to do in that building…Especially over the next few days with MANY people coming through the doors. From all different places in spiritual journeys. Help me to seek you often today. And thank you that you first saw me “under the fig tree”.
So..The surgery for Chris is postponed due to paperwork glitch. He is nervous about the surgery and wants it over with and this delay DIDN’T HELP. He received that news after a big layoff at work. His job is safe, Thank you Lord! but it is just unsettling at SBD right now and THAT DIDN’T HELP
Christopher did not get into WGU after all. No clue what to do next but my worst nightmare is that I’ve screwed him up for his career path and THAT DIDN’T HELP.
Rebekah had a job performance review that she wasn’t happy with at Target. She’s trying to be content while she waits for another job. This review DIDN’T HELP.
As I was typing all of this out I was reminded that I should not be looking to circumstances for this help. Every morning one of my favorite things to do is open the blinds in my room and look at the cross on top of the church. Just yesterday…before all the bad news…I was thinking that I love that I can see that cross and it reminds me that when I “look unto the hills” I see my HELP! Did I remember that throughout the day as the bad news poured in?…No. But this morning–I sat down to type out the stresses of the day and was going to ask God to show me something encouraging in His Word (which I haven’t even opened yet) as I typed the words, “DIDN’T HELP” over and over He reminded me of my thoughts yesterday. I had to look up the verse in its entirety.
My Help Comes from the Lord
A Song of Ascents.
121 I lift up my eyes to the hills.
From where does my help come?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot be moved;
he who keeps you will not slumber.
4 Behold, he who keeps Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The Lord is your keeper;
the Lord is your shade on your right hand.
6 The sun shall not strike you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The Lord will keep you from all evil;
he will keep your life.
8 The Lord will keep
your going out and your coming in
from this time forth and forevermore.
Lord, you are my help. Circumstances are not going to help me, whether good or bad. I trust you in all of the discouraging days and distressing dilemmas of life. You are the Author of not only my story but of Chris’s, Becky’s and Christopher’s. Write it as You will and do what brings you glory. I trust you to redeem the mistakes I’ve made in home schooling Chris to give him a fruitful life in his chosen school/career. I trust you to help Becky learn as she waits. And I trust you to have her in the perfect job that you have created just for her to do. I trust you to give her the patience. I trust you with Chris. We’ve been through layoffs before and maybe will again but you have always provided wonderfully for us. Even miraculous at times. I trust you with the timing of his surgery.
Lord, Please encourage my people today in a specific way. I love them so…but You love them more.
April 10, 2017
After reading the book, “Becoming More Than A Good Bible Study Girl”, I was challenged to begin blogging my daily thoughts/devotions/prayers.
Yesterday was my 51st birthday. This is significant because when my Dad died he was 50. I can’t believe I am now officially older than he was when he passed. I miss him all the time and wonder how he would do as a “Poppy”. He never knew his 3 grandchildren and that’s always been hard for me to swallow. But God is good and I don’t question His timing.. but sometimes it’s just hard.
Chris and I have 3 kids who are the joy of our life. Rebekah (Becky) works at Target and we are so proud of her heart for serving the Lord. I know He has great things planned for her and sometimes I struggle with the patience I need while waiting on His timing. My mother’s heart for her is to see her married with kids and serving the Lord in a local church. Her “career” to her will always be secondary to her service to the Lord. She is impacting and influencing teen girls every week and it’s a joy to my heart to watch. I think I’ve picked out a perfect man for her but we shall see about that as their friendship grows. 😉
Jennifer(Jenny) is finishing up her second year at Nyack and will graduate (Lord willing) next year with a degree in Criminal Justice. She has a passion for prosecuting human traffickers and wants to pursue law school after this. She amazes me daily with how well she is doing in school and her passion and work ethic bless me to the core. My mother’s heart for her is that she will follow her passion and God will provide all that she needs to accomplish the career goals she has. I pray that she does find a good man and I know she wants children too. Sometimes I wonder how she will fit all of that in but if anyone can manage that, it’s Jenny.
Our “baby” is Christopher (Chris). He is finishing up his senior year of high school and will be starting online college at WGU in the fall. He is a great kid/man. I’m very proud of his independence and his honesty. He’s incredibly smart but he hates school and always has. My mother’s heart for him is that we will realize his calling and full potential. I pray that he will find a good woman and raise a family with her. He will make a great husband/father and I am excited for him as he begins his journey as an adult.
I can’t believe we are almost done with our homeschooling years. To be honest…I’m thrilled we are done. It’s been the best thing for our family but also so hard. It puts a lot of stress on me to make sure we get it done correctly. There is SO much I would do differently about the “how” we did school but I wouldn’t change the fact that we did for anything. I do not think it’s the best option for school but for us, it worked and it was good.
We recently moved to Trumbull where I was blessed with the job as Facilities Director for Calvary Church. We live on property and love it. I honestly can’t believe how blessed I am to work where I do with the people there.
And my honey—-the honest love of my life. He is my best friend, caretaker and partner. He makes me laugh every day. He is having surgery on Wednesday to remove a tumor in his foot. It seems like it will be “no big deal” but he will have a long road to recovery.
I will use this blog to post my devotions and also to journal our life. I’m not usually consistent with things like this but I’ll give it a try and see how it goes.