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The Self-Sufficiency of Christ vs. The Constant Needs of Me.

Lord, today I lift up to you baby Noah.  This little guy has been through so much in his short life and his parents are stressed and anxious as they wait for results.  I pray that today you will allow him to have an incident that would communicate to the doctors exactly what is going on in his little body.  If the non breathing is the result of seizures, then give wisdom to find the cause and a plan for a quick resolution.  Please give his parents the strength and peace they need as they are in this time of waiting.  May they draw strength from you and know YOUR Peace which passes all understanding.

I also lift up to you Starr.  Today is her birthday and I know it will be a hard one so close to the loss of her beloved, Paul.  Help her family to love her well today.

Thinking about the self sufficiency of Christ today as I read the next chapter in my book.  Meditating on God having NO needs and that He created me a very needy person makes me thankful.  Thankful because if I had no needs,  I wouldn’t need Him!  I don’t have the appropriate words to describe what I’m feeling about this today but I was greatly blessed just thinking about Him today.  How perfect He is.  How he needs nothing.  Sometimes we think that He created us so that He would have someone to love, someone to worship Him, etc.  But He already had that in the Trinity.  He didn’t NEED to create us for any of it.  Yet He chose to.  Wow…I’m grateful.  And going beyond that, He could have created us to be self sufficient but then we would miss out on knowing Him and needing Him and watching Him provide.  I’m glad I’m needy.  🙂

Only God is self-sufficient.  We need to remember this because it keeps us rightly humbled and constantly going to Him.  Prayerlessness reflects that we think we can do it on our own…  He loves us and wants to give to us.  One sentence in the book hit me a little differently-  “Fasting is an express lane to relearning our limits”.  It reminds us that we are needy and our utter lack of self-sufficiency.  I’ve never been a regular “faster” but I’m going to be thinking on that one for a bit and see where it goes.

I don’t think I’m tempted to believe that God needs me.  But maybe so?  Lord, reveal this to me if it is true.  I know how faithless I am.  I know apart from You, I can do nothing good.  But reign me in if I get out of control here.  Humble me.  I am also very aware that I need You but I know for sure that there are times when I act like I don’t.  Remind me that I do.

I think the human need I resent the most is the need for self-control.  I have none.  But need it in every area.  That boundary is good for me because again, it reminds me that I need to come to Him for control over areas in my life where I have none.  Finances, eating, time limits, etc.  So many.  God is glorified in these times when I do depend on Him and through the Spirit I get victory.  Moment by moment.

Lord, show me more of my needs and show me how having those needs can teach me to rely on You more.  Thank you that YOU NEED NOTHING, yet You supply every need I have.  Thank you for Christ- For meeting the greatest need I have in His sacrifice on the cross for me.  Teach me to recognize the blessing of human need as a reminder of Your ongoing faithfulness to sustain me.  I love you,


God is….Self Existent

Loved this chapter today.  I was greatly distracted while reading it and tempted to skip the meditation/reflection part.  I’m glad I didn’t because each verse had something to help focus my thoughts on Him.  To summarize, I am so awestruck over the fact that He is the Creator of all things and yet He chose to bring me into existence.  He didn’t have to. Yet He did.  Lord, help me fulfill my purpose in being alive and created…and then “created again” once I received Christ.  Thank You that You aren’t finished yet.

Pride is eliminated when we consider that ANYTHING we have or are able to do is ONLY because HE has gifted us and given us opportunities to use those gifts.  It is important to understand that only God is “uncreated” because it reminds us that ONLY God has the power to create.  Anything we do on this earth is just rearranging what He has already created.  This keeps us humble.   Lord, keep this in the forefront of my mind today.

The area I am most prone to take credit for is probably in my ministry with the middle school  girls.  When they show their love or express that they “can’t wait to have me as their leader”, I can be puffed up and think I am really something.  I hate even writing that because it’s not something I would ever say out loud.  But it’s there…always lurking and the pride can well up in an instant.  Lord, any ability I have to connect with these girls is You working in me.  Thank you that serving You in this way brings me joy but I know that my purpose is only to point them to You and encourage them as they grow in their relationship with You.  Help me to ALWAYS point them to YOU and never to me.  I am a mess….But I thank You that You can use this mess for Your Glory.

I am very reminded today that without God, I am nothing.  Thank You that You can bring something out of nothing.  That is the very essence of who You are.  The Great I Am.

I can give thanks to God for what He has allowed me to do.  And when people compliment me, I can turn that right around to thanksgiving to my Creator.

Wisdom Vs. Folly

Update on Noah:  They found that he has some swallowing issues that are treatable.  Still in the NICU but at least there is a plan now.  Thank you, Jesus!

Update on Lisa:  We are meeting tomorrow to talk.  I’m praying for her to have the words to formulate the right questions and that God would give me wisdom to answer them.

Started a new book today.  Jen Wilkins, “None Like Him”.  Aaron bought it for me as a thank you gift.  I’m excited to begin it.  In the prologue I was struck by two things:

  1.  There must be a balance between the familiar “our Father” and the fact that he is “in heaven”.  It’s awesome that we can come to him as little children and call him “Abba Father/Daddy” but necessary to remember that He is also “in heaven”.  He is so far above us.  He transcends all.
  2. I love that the author compared, side by side, that the “the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom” with “the fear of man is the beginning of folly”.  Wise or foolish.  We have some great clues in these verses as to how to gain the wisdom and avoid the folly.

Chapter 1, Infinite

1 Kings 8:27, “But will God indeed dwell on the earth? Behold, heaven and the highest heaven cannot contain you; how much less this house that I have built!”

God, you are limitless.  We, as humans are limited.  Help me to extend grace to the limits of others and be reminded of my own limits.  Protect me from the pride that can swell up when I think of myself as limitless.

Psalm 119:96, “I have seen a limit to all perfection, but your commandment is exceedingly broad, “

Thank you that their are no limits to Your perfection and that Your Word is broad enough to cover even the vilest sin.

Isaiah 40:12-13, “Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand and marked off the heavens with a span, enclosed the dust of the earth in a measure and weighed the mountains in scales and the hills in a balance?  Who has measured the Spirit of the Lord, or what man shows him his counsel?”

God, You alone did that.  You have measured things exactly as you want them.  Your Spirit is immeasurable and you need not our counsel.

Lord, I am grateful that You are a God that cannot be measured.  You are huge.  You are above all, over all.  And yet, you love us and care for us so perfectly.  Thank you.

Forgive me for those times when I attempt to place limits on Your Will.  You alone get to decide the measures of my life.  I trust You.  You are limitless in Your Power to do with my life what you will.  I am willing.  Help my heart to remember to trust You when I am fretting and trying to manipulate You with my own desires and will.

The boundary that I most likely to attempt to cross is becoming prideful in myself.  I constantly seek to please man which is folly.  Let my only concern today be with pleasing You and fearing You so that Your Wisdom would abound in my life.

Help me to accept the limits of others and extend Your Grace to them as you have so much done that for me.

Show me ways that I have tried to “take measure” of  You.  Help me see how my own limitations can bring You glory.  This is the purpose of my life and the reason I am breathing today.  Show me ways that I have thought of you as having limits on who you are and what you can do.  Praise you for your limitlessness!  And Praise You for your love towards me.